There are so many things I want to do, and I am so, so very tired.
There never seems to be enough hours in the day, although truth be told I spend most of them sitting on my ass in front of a computer. That’s not to say I don’t love you, Internet, but I really should be getting out and doing the things that I want to be doing. The only thing stopping me is myself and a lack of energy. Things I want to do, or do more of:

  • Yoga
  • “Running”
  • Bytowne movies
  • Reading
  • Beer events
  • Writing in coffee shops
  • Cooking

I think that’s a fairly decent list, as these things go.

But something always stops me. Either there’s something on the internet that pulls me in – and it doesn’t take much – or I just don’t go. I need a better system of self-motivation, because obviously what I’ve got isn’t working for me. Sometimes I think money will do it, like when I used to pay upwards of $500/month to see a personal trainer. Sometimes I try to set up a reward system, but when you get yourself whatever you want anyways, that doesn’t really work. I try to picture myself as one of my favourite ass-kicking characters who would never just sit around reading Reddit, but sadly, I am not Starbuck, no matter how much I pretend I am.

I want to live life, not just exist. I want to feel fulfilled.

So readers, how do you motivate yourself to do the things you *want* to do?

2 thoughts on “Motivation”

  1. I used to have this problem too April, you’re definitely not alone. It was my apathy(but mostly self-doubt) that stopped me from finishing school, and experiencing countless other things. One thing that finally gave me motivation, was leaving my first marriage. That was a confidence booster. Then, a few years later came my first post-secondary class in over 15 years.

    Less than two weeks after the class started, my grandfather suddenly passed. My aunt read this poem at his funeral, because it reminded her of his character:

    Recipe for Success

    Bite off more than you can chew,
    Then chew it.
    Plan more than you can do,
    Then do it.
    Point your arrow at a star,
    Take your aim, and there you are.

    Arrange more time than you can spare,
    Then spare it.
    Take on more than you can bear,
    Then bear it.
    Plan your castle in the air,
    Then build a ship to take you there.

    Ever since that day, if I tell myself I can’t do something, I recite that poem to myself. Sometimes even under my breath out loud. I so badly wanted to quit that first class, telling myself I was too sad to carry on with school, but that was just an excuse. I kept going because I knew my grandfather would be proud of me.

    7 months later, my grandmother passed. I was in the middle of delivering papers when I got the call, and it was January. I was freezing and miserable, but I didn’t quit. My grandparents were NOT quitters.

    My motivation comes from realizing that there was something, anything I could do with all of the time I used to waste. I feel overwhelmed sometimes I suppose, but I always tell myself now that I CAN, instead of I CAN’T, and that has made all the difference.

    April, I know you CAN!

    Sorry for the long response…I hope this helps ;)


    1. Hey Tara: Thank you so much for this great response. I love the poem a lot! It’s actually quite a great motivator so thank you for sharing! You said something about wasted time and that is the crux of it for me. I’m tired of wasting time. There is so much to do and so little life to do it in.

      But you’re right, I CAN :-)

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