I feel a bit like I’ve been on a tilt-o-whirl of emotions lately. There’s been a lot of anger, some sadness, a lot of gratitude, but right now (as in this very moment) I am dealing with a heck of a lot of anxiety.
It’s weird, because it’s everything and nothing all at once, which is as fun as you can imagine. Things like:
‘Oh my god they won’t be printing my action plan until July! That’s *way* too late!’
‘What if I never meet someone?’
‘How the heck am I going to get to ComicCon?’
‘Am I bugging people when I text them?’
‘Do people really want to hang out with me or are they just being polite?’
‘Who is going to watch my cats while I’m in Florida?’
‘Will I ever get to be the first person someone calls/texts/whatever with good news?’
‘Was my sight in my right eye always this bad? Because WOW.’
All these are the kind of things that are running through my head on a pretty constant basis. It sucks, I have to say. Plus, it’s typically the silly things that get me. Right now I’m having a hard time focusing because of one of the smaller, less important things on my list. So I thought I would jot this all down in the hopes that some sort of exorcism will take place.
We shall see.